Maybe I was too hard on them, my folks. It comes from a simultaneously selfless and selfish place, this frustration of best-worst-case scenario parent care with a baby, family and career in tow living 600+ miles apart. But they just want to see their children and grandchildren, to be with their families, and with so many families fragmented without, this love and longing is a blessing.
Playing with Bea on daddy daycare Friday, and then prepping for Halloween yesterday, I fast forwarded to when Bea will be 40 and I'm 84, Amy 79 (if we're so fortunate; I'm counting on fortune).
Hopefully we'll be healthy and independent, but what if we're not? We will become a burden to her? Will she help us selflessly as long as we work to help ourselves? We she vent on her holographic supersonic blog about us when we don't and make marginal decisions (I can't see all of the future, c'mon)?
Thankfully the worrisome time-travel bungee cord snapped me back in place and we had a fabulous Hallow's Eve!
From Princess Bacon to Pooh Bear Bee, Beatrice was a doll!
Even though she cackled with laughter when I kicked an immovable object full force with my right foot. Ouch. Hee-hee!And even though she reveled in squishing pumpkin brain th
rough her tiny fingers and then ate it.
She survived her first trick or treat outing on the Santa Cruz Wharf and Mommy and Daddy ate all the candy. Yum.
In fact, starting next year we're enacting a mandatory processed candy for organic fruits and veggies exchange.
Hey, we care. A blessing indeed.
Yep. I struggle with the whole reveling in being a parent while trying to keep my own parents in mind, too.
ReplyDeleteThat Bea was a bee, and you were flowers is too cute!
Happy Halloween!